When you know you have met the right midwife
When I was pregnant with my first child my partner nearly fell over when I told him not only was I wanting to homebirth..it was going to cost us the equivalent of 6 weeks of his wages.
He shook his head in disbelief and could not see the value that I could feel. He said a flat no. Little did he know the will of a pregnant woman...and the sense of peace that would settle over him once he too met the woman who was to become our midwife.
There are no words...it's a crazy feeling when you meet the right midwife...it's like the feeling you have when you meet someone you know you are going to fall truly madly deeply in love with...it's just a deep inner knowing and sense of peace.
As the woman about to have a baby no amount of money could come close to the sense of safety and peace I felt when I met the woman who I chose as my midwife. There was no way money was going to be a factor for me in my decision.
Somehow I knew my birth experience was going to be defining of me in many ways and to me there was no price for that. From the women around me who had shared the emotional pain and sense of alone ness that they harboured from giving birth in the conventional system I was given a deep sense that this journey to meet my baby would be with me forever... and that the woman I had met in that little building in East Freo would be with me and beside me the whole way...no matter what.